A little over 4 years ago, I was prepping to go to New York for surgery at MSKCC on my ankle. Now a few days over 4 years later I'm doing the same thing. Preparing to go to New York, I am reminded of how I came to this decision, I am reminded of how this nightmare began.
I described my original decision to have treatment at MSKCC, where they were willing to given me an Option 4. This is not a question I have the emotional capacity to question right, it is what it is. I trust my doctor there, I trust the staff. Also, in a weird way it has kept my life as a cancer patient there, away from the rest of my life.
This morning as I cehcked more things off of my To Do List and then headed out ot the gym for a quick 1.5 hour workout, I was reminded that while yes, so many things are frieghteningly similar as the last time I did this, still I am not the same person I was 4 years. I am stronger, physically and mentally. I am 70 lbs lighter. I have found a faith in myself. I know that I will get through this even when I have my days that I just want to curl up in a ball. Can you blame me?
Alright, back to work young lady- cracks the whip!
"Houses" Quilt
4 months ago
2 comments:
Lisa - Don't blame ya for the crawling in a ball thing but you have beaten this before and you will again - rooting for ya xxxx
LisaB
Hey there, friend. Hang in there, you are much stronger than you can imagine (especially on your worst day). Praying for you. Julie W.
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